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for halloween, my work is having a costume contest, and my team leader has decided my team’s gonna have a ‘casual’ theme. so we’re supposed to wear our PJs or a bath robe to class and decorate our area with the theme in mind.

i don’t have any robes or PJs, i sleep nude. i have no idea what to wear tomorrow. i don’t even have any boxers i could wear cause underwear’s not really a main part of my wardrobe.

if anyone has any ideas what i can wear, drop me a line. i probably should have posted earlier, tomorrow being halloween and all.

i changed my cell phone plan on the 20th of this month. dropped my minutes down to 300 from 400 and had some other extras taken off. because the promotion at the time i signed up for my plan had free 1000 mobile-to-mobile minutes, the bitch who changed my plan didn’t think to take that off, and didn’t tell me it was still on there. i just got confirmation of my rate change, and they were trying to charge me $10 a month for the mobile-to-mobile minutes. bastids and bitches and hos!! argh!

i’ll be so glad when/if i can change to AT&T

well, today’s the third day i’ve been on prozac, and still haven’t seen much change. i realize it’ll take about a month, but i sure wish it would kick in faster.

today during orientation i guess my mind wandered a little, and i started feeling wicked sick to my stomach and felt like i wanted to cry. i hate when that feeling comes across me in public. *sigh*

well, today was the day of my orientation for my new job. it was okay, but not the best day.

it started out first by me leaving a little later than i had hoped because i didn’t anticipate frost again. i had to hunt around my mom’s car for her ice scraper because i still haven’t been able to find one. so then i had to scrape every window.

i still arrived at the northport facility 10 minutes early like i was supposed to, so that was okay. got in the room with everyone else there, and there had to be about 30-40 people there. it was a long 4 hours because it was manly just learning the history of LL Bean. though some of the tidbits they told us was pretty cool.

after the whole orientation thing, i stopped by my team leader and asked to see what my schedule will be like. it will change from week to week, but so far, after the week of training next week, i’ll only have 26 hours in 4 days the following week. i’m a little upset about that. i can only hope it’ll increase as the season draws on.

looks like i won’t be able to get contacts or that cell phone i was planning on. that kinda sucks. maybe i can save up for a while. *sigh* why does nothing ever work out right?

well, today’s only the second day that i’ve taken my antidepressant. i know it’s too early to really have any effect on me, so that would probably explain why i woke up this morning at 8 and just laid there and cried for a half hour.

*sigh* i hope it starts to work soon. i don’t want to break down at work or anything and get fired. that wouldn’t help the depression any.

well, maybe not really a winter wonderland, more like just another dreary day. but it is snowing! it’s been quite a while since i’ve seen snow. while i’ve been in Massachusetts during december in the past few years, i haven’t faced a real full winter in 4 years. this should be interesting.

i don’t even have an ice scraper for my car. and i can’t find then in any stores. if anyone has an idea of where i can get one, please let me know. i really need one.

*sigh* snow is so peaceful. wish i had someone to cuddle up with and just watch it snow :’(

for a while now i’ve wanted to get a new cell phone and change carriers. there’s this one phone i really want to get but i don’t have the money until i start work (my first day’s friday, for all of 4 hours). today AT&T wireless had a one-day-sale going on that involved the phone i want. it was free with instant online rebates, and this deal was available only online, not in the stores. i couldn’t resist, so i tried to order the phone. come to find out that because of my credit history they require a deposit. okay, i was willing to borrow the money from my mother until i could pay her back. i really wanted this phone. but wait, their online systems aren’t able to accept deposits online. so that deal of a free phone was totally lost on me. and now i’m wicked upset.

the phone is $199 without a plan, and that’s what was quoted to me when i went into a store a while ago. i didn’t understand it. did the idiot salesman think i was just going to buy the phone without a plan and wear it as a pendant or something? really, people amaze me sometimes. the phone usually sells for about $150 with a plan, and most of the times there’s about a $50 or $75 rebate, so it’s really an affordable phone.

this post isn’t really for people to read, though you can if you want. it’s basically just a reminder for me. today’s the day i start taking my prozac. i just wanted to have it written somewhere so i don’t forget. if i knew what to watch for and write about, i would probably start a journal so i could see if it works for me or not. if you have any suggestions on things i could put in the journal to keep track of the meds are working or not, let me know.

other than that, that’s it for this post.

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after much mustering of courage, i finally called my doctor’s office to make an appointment to get my knee looked at, get refills on my current back meds, and to see if i can get on an anti-depressant. (i hope he lets me try one again. if not, who knows what will happen :-\ )

i don’t know why, but i just can’t use the phone. if i have to call someplace like the doctor or a mechanic to make an appointment for car work, or anything else like that, i just can’t call. my heart starts racing, i start to breath irregularly, and i feel sick to my stomach.

this is probably going to wreak havoc with my job that i’m going for orientation for on friday; since it’s a phone job. taking customer orders over the phone, and providing other help to them. at least it’s not a telemarketing job. i think i might be able to answer phones, but there’s no way i could actually make calls to people, especially when they don’t want to be called.

*sigh*