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i don’t often remember my dreams, but when i do, i tend to dwell over them. last night is no exception. while i don’t remember everything that happened, there’s one point in the dream that i remember, and i’ve been playing back in my mind all day.

this might not make sense to anyone but me, but this is kind of what happened.

i was in school somewhere taking a class, i think it was video making, and i was back with my best friend in florida. we were in a class and we kinda went over to the next class to see what was going on, kinda spying on them. i think the two classes were in a competition with the videos they were making. while i was in this second class room, the instructor wanted some people to go to the administration building for something. even though i wasn’t in the class, she didn’t realize that and sent me with another student (the student looked kind of familiar, i think it was someone i’ve seen walking around at work, though at work i’ve only seen the back/top of his head). so we head out the door and out onto the campus and as we’re walking, we don’t really know eachother, and we don’t look at eachother, but we start walking closer and closer together. our hands brush against eachother, and neither one of us move to provide more space. after that, i feel his hand holding mine and i get a shiver up my spine. such electricity. the kind you feel with innocent love. i kind of look at him out the corner of my eye, and i can see he’s kind of uncertain if i’ll be accepting of the hand holding, so i move my fingers so i can kind of rub his hand while we’re holding hands to let him know that it was okay, and that i liked it.

after that, i woke up, but i’ve been thinking about the hand holding all day. and the feeling it gave me in my dream.

i usually try to analyze my dreams, but i have no idea what this means. if anyone wants to make any guesses, feel free to post something in the comments section, or email me. don’t be shy, i’d like to know what you all think.

okay, this is a little late, but last thursday i got my hair cut. i figured i’d try to boost my vanity points and post a couple pictures of what it looks like now. it’s not much, but it’s nice and short, just how i like it. and that’s what counts!

so, i was reading the past news entries for ll bean while i was at work today. one made me almost laugh out loud. seems that back in august, the mail order people at the building i work in received a letter with an unidentified substance in it. as per the rules, this envelope was opened in a controlled environment with a separate ventilation system than the rest of the building for safety, and the police, fire department, and ll bean security department were all notified. they finally were able to get a hold of the customer that sent the envelope, and it turns out the woman wanted to reorder some incense she had, and sent a sample of it in the envelope so we would know which scent she wanted.

some people just shouldn’t be allowed to live alone. they really need around-the-clock care. so they don’t hurt themselves or others.

so, i’ve taken out all of my piercings. it’s kind of a fresh start for me. the nipple piercing had migrated too much, and i was worrying it would rip out at some point. so i took it out and i’m going to let it heal, and get it repierced sometime down the line. i also took out my earring. that one was just a random kinda occurrence. i don’t think the cartilage will heal over, but the skin will, so if i ever decide i miss it, i’m sure it’ll be nothing to just get the skin pierced again, and get a new ring inserted.

speaking of piercings, i’ve really been thinking about a PA again lately. only problems is that i’m too scared, and also it’s illegal for piercing shops to pierce below the waist. so i’d have to escape to New Hampshire for a few hours to get it done. it is tempting, i must say.

this is just a general gripe that i need to get out of my system. there are no cute guys at my work. at least none that i have seen yet. there was this one guy who walked past my cube the other day, but it was such a fleeting glimpse that i really can’t remember much about what he looked like. all i know is he stirred something in my pants *blush*

last night i had a late night (9:30pm-11:00pm) shopping spree at LL Bean in Freeport with a 33-40% employee discount. it was fantabulous. except for the part of the shopping spree that dealt with me not having any money. wasn’t much of a spree after all. but i did get a great new pair of sunglasses for when i get contacts. they were $22 and with my discount i got them for $14.67. not a bad deal if i do say so myself.

i got a new clock radio last night at Target. it’s pretty nice, it has a large display, blue numbers (instead of the usual red), 2 alarms, and a nifty nap feature. you don’t have to set one of the alarms if you’re just taking a short nap, you can set anywhere up to 99 minutes for the alarm to go off.

getting new stuff always brightens my day a little, but getting an alarm clock means that i have to get up early for work, and that doesn’t please me.

(i would have linked to my new clock radio, but i can’t find it online at all.)

so i’ve been off the blogging kick for a while now. i’ve been trying to kind of lay low. i’ll post more about that later.

as for now. just updates on my life that i haven’t blogged about in a while.

• i’m now working for LL Bean on a temporary/part time basis. i’m sure i’ll be posting horror stories about customer service.
• i’m now making some money, so i hope to get contact lenses and a new cell phone pretty soon.
• as i’ve posted before, i’m on prozac now, and it seems to be helping a little.

that’s it for this post i guess.

FYI: this is my 100^th post since starting this blog. i’m kind of excited about that :)