after having a headache for about two and a half weeks, it finally came time to have my monthly doctor’s appointment. i mentioned it, and he really doesn’t know what’s causing it, but we’re going to see if it’s just a side effect form the Prozac. so, in order to do that, i have to stop taking Prozac. since it has such a long half-life, i have to be off anti-depressants for quite a while before we can really tell. i’m supposed to stop using it for about one and a half to two weeks, but since i was taking one of the maximum dosages, stopping it cold turkey probably wasn’t the best idea ever. i’ve been off Prozac for about 4 days now, and while not having withdrawal symptoms, i’m starting to suffer from emotional instability again. i’ve been kinda down yesterday and today, and tonight i dropped by supper plate before i could have any, and got so upset with myself, i still haven’t had anything to eat since lunch :-\ the doctor also wants me to start Celexa after i’ve been of Prozac for a while. i’m not sure how i feel about that. i think if the headaches don’t go away, i’ll ask to be put back on Prozac, which i know was working for the most part the way it should.
on top of stopping the medication, my ex has told me he’s finally made a gay.com screen name, and that he’s looking to hook up, and that he actually did hook up one night. that made me feel warm and fuzzy inside. knowing that he’d rather hook up with random guys than be in a relationship with someone like me who is very loving and loyal. maybe i’m just not worth being in a relationship. whatever the case, it still doesn’t make me feel any better.
today was also my first day back to work after the holidays, and of course, being the day after christmas, there were so many people calling in to complain about their presents and wanting to exchange them. friggin’ ingrates. why can’t they just be thankful they had family who thought enough about them to get them something for christmas, and exchange it gracefully? why do they have to be so greedy and complain that it’s not what they wanted, or it was an ugly item or whatever? it’s not what christmas is about.
so many people forget what christmas is about. it’s about family and the joy of giving. even though people may say it’s the birthday of jesus christ, many of the traditions are from the pagan religion, but no one thinks about that or wants to acknowledge that.
ugh, sometimes people just piss me off. i think working in customer satisfaction is really detrimental to your faith that humanity, in general, is good and worth being around. it’s just not, people can be so ignorant and rude. they just need to be sequestered off and have assistance with living. have a more pleasant person do things for them and interact with people.
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